Immersion in Stillness

Testimonials from participants in the One Day Immersion held in Europe:

Thank you very much to everyone! I feel so calm and silent inside, this is amazing, no words.

There are no noisy thoughts in my head. Silence!!! I was even not so much afraid of flight as I used to be usually.

My experience now – I would have suffered, but I am too lazy to do it somehow :)))) it’s amazing, how does it work?

Deep gratitude to all the organizers for all the organizing work, for your help and contribution in our growth.
The process was really great, powerful, so much Grace we have received!!! While working on the 10 aspects of our life, which we have to learn to be conscious of, I could see how all of them are there in my life. The last one – about accepting myself – was especially crucial for me.
During contemplation, I received so much Grace, I felt so much energy and vibration, then tears come down spontaneously. I’ve got such a relief. I’m so grateful to AmmaBhagavan. I was afraid to do vipassana, I worried that I would not be able to seat without any movement and asked my Divine for help. At one point of time I just didn’t feel my body any more, there was silence inside, the mind switched off. The Deeksha just “pressed me down”, as if I was filled with something viscous, heartwarming and very perceptible, there was silence and peace. First, I had smarting eyes, then I had a feeling as if somebody was pressing on my nape region (where the cerebellum is). After the Deeksha transfer, everything started shaking inside, I felt to sob, tears came down, then something relaxed inside and it was so silent inside, the silence pressed down and charmed, I looked at people and saw how they are overfilled with joy. I love the Divine, for their love, protection, support and for that they are guiding me throughout my life, I feel indescribable gratitude.
On the way to the airport, I noticed that I did not want to think but just look around, hear, just enjoy life.
Today there is joy inside, thoughts are there, but I notice all the commentaries immediately and they go away. From the very morning my brain is playing the moolamantra automatically, it seems it was instead of comments and stories of the mind ))) Thank you very much to everybody once again!

On the process day I had a wonderful state after the Deeksha, I couldn’t remember when I felt so good last time.

While doing vipassana I felt hand’s warmth and movement in the liver and pancreas areas. Pain appeared there, but it soon disappeared. Then there was a feeling as if the top of my head has been opened and there was a vortex energy flow and gentle movements inside of my head. Though I’ve never been in India, I saw Ekam, young Amma Bhagavan and poppy fields of heavenly beauty. I’ve got a feeling of coming back home after a long absence on Earth. I’m writing this while traveling in a train, I feel total silence and calmness.

It seems to happen in such a different way for everyone… I had a pleasant travel home from the process with nice companions. I fell asleep immediately after taking my place in the train, even though I usually don’t sleep well in trains. I’m observing myself. One moment I see my ingratitude, another moment – a hurt. I don’t know what to do with them. I think, I will just keep watching. I’ve put myself into the meditation. I’ve known always, that meditation is the best way to calm down the mind. I’ve done it as in the process – sitting moveless and also I’ve invited the Divine.

There was a feeling as if I have come back home where I had been waited for and met with joy. I felt calmness and acceptance of everything happening, I had headache sometimes, and sometimes I fell asleep or not present during contemplation, there was such a love and gratitude flow towards everybody in the hall and gratitude to Sri Bhagavan! We’ve already come back home, now only we start realizing the greatness and impotence of the process! Deep gratitude to all participants and organizers!

During the Deeksha-transfer my mind tried to think what to ask for, but its gears didn’t work as if I’ve got amnesia. I tried hard to remember what I need – after all, contemplation on as many as 10 points underwent with lots of pain and tears… Would all that be in vain in the crucial moment of deeksha-transfer? I was not able to remember anything. But suddenly I realized I didn’t have to worry because everything had already happened… And I just liked the silence with the absence of thoughts, and I started enjoying it every next moment, and I started to feel such a lightness all around my body. The feeling was very light and gentle. Thank you so much for the opportunity to have a different quality of life. My deep gratitude to all organizers, to everybody who was supporting and is continuing to support me with their prayers.

I’m very grateful to all your team for your work. In regard of my state… There is neither joy nor comfort…
The mind has become restless, not even a minute of calmness… one moment it is chattering non-stop, then it wants to compete, judge… looking for somebody to get hurt of etc… The only thing that pleases… I see all this very clearly… I’m like a witness which is staying aside and just watching all this…
But the body is tired, it seems to be tired because of all this activity of the mind… it just wants to lie down and do nothing… I close my eyes and there is a feeling as if there is a beehive in every cell of my body…

I’d like to share my experience. I used to have strong fear quite often before processes. But when I have come for the process, my state, on the contrary, was calm and peaceful, I entered the hall with tears in my eyes and with a feeling of deep gratitude for that life gave me such an amazing opportunity.
During the process, there were different states: sometimes – inner peace, sometimes – anxiety, sometimes – fear, while working on hurts and insensitivity I cried and saw a lot of truth about myself, it was like a movie. That was so powerful!
While getting prepared for the Deeksha when we should not move, I was overfilled with fear again. It is difficult to describe with words what was happening, my heart was beating fast, and there was a feeling as if I was in a dungeon and had a strong desire to come out, but I was not able to do that! I started to breathe deeply and tried to relax and to watch my fear. My state was becoming calmer and calmer, I almost ceased to feel my body, it is not there, there was emptiness and something was aware of what was happening. Then there was a feeling that my temples began to become clenched and unclenched very gently, something was obviously happening in my head, but there was no resistance anymore, there was just the experiencing. During the Deeksha-transfer there was tremendous grace and gratitude for everything!
Thank you very much to everybody who was organizing everything!

Mind is really silent!! Amazing process!! I got my ticket at the last moment… When I came back from the process to my hotel, my husband scolded me that we didn’t solve any issue regarding our business because I had spent the whole day somewhere… However, there was such a silence inside me. After 5 minutes, he said: Come and kiss me at least! The conflict just ceased. Pure magic!

Peace and happiness creep in on the sly, mind is checking whether stories are gone or not.

The mind is silent, my head hurts ;)) The intensity of silence comes up and down. Some flashes from thoughts… then silence again.

I can see how some fragments of thoughts (like beginning of stories) used to come. But as soon as I put my attention on them… they stop.

I do not feel any need to secure some status for myself. It is not interesting at all. It is interesting to watch as everything unfolds inside. Maybe tomorrow everything will disappear – who knows? But while it is happening, there is a lively interest in exploring it without any expectations.
Yesterday I was flying back home after the process. That was nighttime, I felt tired, it was stuffy in the plane, my seat had no option to be reclined, and I felt lots of discomfort in my body because of all that. In the opposite row, a woman was flying with a small baby who was starting to whimper. And I was looking forward to having a “festive” flight)). After some time the baby began to cry loudly. Previously, I would be completely off balance. But this time, very unexpectedly, I experienced the following: When the baby just cried, it didn’t bother me at all. But when he switched to squalling, this sound flashed as a bright experience in my brain, physically, but to my surprise, no irritation followed that! I was just enjoying the bright experience, literally!
The experience repeated at that moment, when a stewardess dropped something on the floor with a bang not far from me! A bright and very physical flash (like a flash of fire) appeared in the brain, but no irritation followed! That was amazing! Indescribable! I do not know whether it will remain forever or will pass, but while it unfolds inside, it is very interesting to observe and explore it!
Thank you so much for being able to experience this now by the grace of God!
This is the most precious gift in my life!

When we began once again to contemplate on the 10 points in Vipassana (where the stories are arising from), I suddenly began to touch emptiness within me and the fact that there is no one inside.
And when we came to the 10th point – unacceptance… The mind stopped with the question: who is there and who does not accept?… and suddenly silence came… Who has this “craving for security”, and from where do feelings flow? Lots of questions have arisen, for which there is no answer.
When we started to receive Deeksha – the questions died, and answers for the questions became unimportant.
I can see now how stories want to arise within me out of habit… But they don’t have a continuation because of the meaninglessness of the process… It’s a very interesting state – I keep observing.
Deep gratitude to this course… to Sri AmmaBhagavan, to Tejasaji, to all organizers and participants.

After yesterday’s process, I feel some kind of detachment from the games of life, there is calmness inside, I’m listening to mind stories, getting involved, but much less than before, I’m observing inner emptiness and joy; all external things happen on their own… And everything is good! I convey my gratitude!

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